Tired (A letter to myself)
I am tired.
Specifically, I am tired of sitting in the background and waiting on my opportunity. I am tired of flipping through (example: LinkedIn) to see what (example: jobs) are out there. I am tired of waiting for the right role to present itself so that I can apply. I am tired of working a job that I only chose because it was a good fit for my skills.
Now let’s get this straight, I may be tired but I am no victim. Everything that I want is not here because I have not taken the actions to make them appear. I have chosen the route that I am currently traveling.
I may have been influenced by the people around me but I ultimately made the choice. I made the choice to accept every role I have had over my corporate career. I have made every choice and taken every action that has resulted in me being tired.
So now that I know that I’m tired and responsible, what next? Do I continue down the route that I’m currently on and play it safe? Do I take an incredible risk and quit my job and start doing something that I want to do? That sounds great but it doesn’t sound very smart. Do I take some small actions that make me feel better now but won’t sustain my energy for the long term? That’s the easy thing to do but I don’t want to do easy.
First thing I need to do is stop hiding. Take a look at (example: my profile). No one knows that I’m tired. I don’t want my employer to know that. I want my employer to think I love my job and will be with them forever. Funny thing is they can let me go whenever the wind blows in the wrong direction. I am going to let the world know what I want to do so the world can assist me in finding a way to do it.
Second but really first, I will define what will give me energy. Being a Jack of all trades there are many things that give me energy. My responsibility is to narrow it down so that I can focus. The lack of focus has been a deterrent to my success over the years. This will be a deterrent no more.
This will take hard decisions because I will have to narrow my list and let something go. Yet I am ready. (examples: I love to solve problems. I love to create. I have begun to love writing. I love helping others. I love the energy from crowds. I love to see someone smile because of something I’ve done. I love music. I love logic. I love diversity.) I love so many things. Yet, it is time to focus. This is my duty.
Third, I will take action. Once I have defined what I am focused on and let the world know I want more of it, I will take action. I must take action in the area I’ve decided to focus on as much as humanly possible. Yes, it will be a balance. I must take care of my obligations first. I must continue to excel at what I am doing today but I must find a way to incorporate in what I want to be doing tomorrow.
None of this will be easy. This is my life and it is time to take control. It is time to stop taking the safe route and start taking the right route. It is time to do what is right for me. Wish me luck just as I would wish you the same. I am truly excited about this decision. My new journey starts today.
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